Anxiety.

Hi everyone so today is a different type of post for you all, hope you don't mind. I have seen a few bloggers mention they suffer from anxiety and I have seen a few posts about it too so when I asked on twitter if people would want to see this a huge amount of you said yes.

My anxiety started last September when I had been off school ill for a very long time and it was time for me to go back and I realized I couldn't. The thought of having to go in a class with everybody scared me. I started having panic attacks and couldn't go. Throughout the time I was ill etc I didn't see anybody and I stayed in my house as I was too scared too leave.

That October somebody was hammering on my front door all through the night and that really started off my anxiety and panic attacks again. The night after that I started with a serious panic attack at 7pm. I was getting palpitations, legs were numb, couldn't breath, shaking and chest pain. My mum was trying everything to calm me down but nothing was working. By the time it got to 11pm my mum rang the out of hours doctors for me to go up there to be checked over. I finally stopped with the panic attack as I was leaving the hospital at around midnight. The out of hours doctor was useless and just said to me I had to wait until the morning baring in mind I couldn't breath.

The next morning I went to the doctors and they were just as useless and told me they couldn't do anything as I hadn't been suffering for long.

This February it all started up again, the school nurse who I worked with as I was still not going to lessons offered to do some breathing techniques with me but she never. In the months where I had no bother with it I managed to get myself a job which I am still at now. 

When I was working it did effect me a little as I have to communicate with a lot of people which I find hard sometimes.

In April I had my college interview which again set of a panic attack as I knew I was going to have to be around lots of people for it. Turned out it was fine though.

Recently I was trained on the till at work. I was good at first as I wasn't having to serve lots of people at once but over the last few weeks I have been left alone to deal with a que of 6 people. That's not a lot normally but where I work they all want food and drinks which I also had to do as well as the till. 

This again caused my anxiety to flare up and I have been suffering really bad this last week to the point I have been having panic attacks before I go. I told my boss my problem and she gave the rest of week of. I am still yet to hear back of when I am going.

I have been considering leaving my job now and going into something I enjoy and that is a lot less busy.

I am starting college this September and I am so scared and I know my anxiety will start up again but I hope it won't be too bad.

If any of you suffer with anxiety feel free to drop me an email if you would like to talk to me. You can use the contact form on the side.

Keira

xox